September sun, rotted flatbush porch
I would have run then, had I known the cost 
Autumnal rays turned your eyes to stone 
Did it give you pleasure to steal my soul?

Sorry
Is all that you can’t say
Years gone by and still
Words don’t come easily
Like sorry
Like sorry

Forgive me
Is all that you can’t say
Years gone by and still
Words don’t come easily
Like forgive me
Forgive me

But you can say baby:
Baby can I hold you tonight
Maybe if I’d told you the right words
At the right time
You’d be mine

I love you
Is all that you can’t say
Years gone by and still
Words don’t come easily
Like I love you
I love you

But you can say baby
Baby can I hold you tonight
Maybe if I’d told you the right words
At the right time
You’d be mine

Baby can I hold you tonight
Maybe if I’d told you the right words
At the right time
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I won’t sleep one bit for weeks after a day like this

ok, I’m sharing:

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden
That's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden
That's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes
They're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things
Will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?

Snow Patrol, Chasing cars

El cambio usualmente es bueno, es bizarro, es confuso. No es la primera vez que mi estado de animo se transforma así de rápido; pero esta vez es muy potente. Me asusta y me confunde y me llena de esperanzas que pensaba que ya no era capaz de concebir. Pero siento que hay un motivo para no ceder al cambio así de golpe… y aquí me quedo en blanco. Quiero pensar no esperen, no hay ninguno! . Cobardía por asociación. No puedo creerlo, estoy nervioso y me tiemblan los dedos. Garganta seca. Sentimientos paranoicos de oler mal, que mi aspecto es ofensivo. Se evidencian mis defectos. Sera porque soy un inseguro narcisista sin escrúpulos?

agh estoy nervioso! ignoro que responder… pero no quiero verme grosero fingiendo no tener respuestas… Estoy escribiendo casi compulsivamente. (Pueden creer que me llevo una eternidad escribir este asco de texto? lo edité como cuatro veces)

Ironic how people always say “try your best” but you still fail. A pathetic lack of courage, perhaps? nay. My best, most charming attempt at flattery was the everydayman’s  hello. Frustration.  Empty crops as result for the best seeds planted on the best ground, carefully weeded and tended, fertilized, year long care. This is what amateur boxers feel when they connect their best punch only to find it rebounding on a steel chin. Today, part of the small agonizing hope left in me died. Whatever. Resignation. I wont die,  I’m used to it.

Besabas como nadie se lo imagina
Igual como una mar en calma,
Igual como un golpe de mar.
Y siempre te quedabas a ver al alba
Y a ser tú mi medicina para olvidar.

Ya se que me avisabas hace tiempo:
“Amor, ten mucho cuidado, amor que te dolera
Tu no debes quererme, yo soy pecado”
Hay dias en mi pasado que volveran.

{coro}
Yo que fui tormenta
Yo que fui tornado
Yo que fui volcan
Soy un volcan apagado.
Porque tu volaste de mi nido
Porque t?volaste de mi lado
Yo que fui tormenta
Yo que fui tornado
Yo que fui volcan,
Soy un volcan apagado.

Hiciste que los dias se hicieran noches.
A veces era tu cuerpo,
A veces era algo mas.
Y era un pobre hombre, pero a tu lado
Senti que era afortunado como el que más